MY DREAMS
ABOUT THE BLOGGER
Rev. Dr. James Mbotela Syomuti, ThD, DD, PhD, is a Kenyan citizen and he lives in Kitui County, near Kitui Town. He is married to Anna and they have been blessed with six children, (four sons and two daughters.) All of their children are now adults and some of them are married. He is a pastor, a teacher, an artist, a writer of fiction and nonfiction, a poet, a humorist and he is also a prolific personal blogger (https://syomuti.blogspot.com). He has a deep passion for writing content. So far, he has written and published some ebooks with Smashwords Publishing Platform in USA. His published titles are; (1) The Maid (2) The Moving Mouth (3) The Virgin (4) The Drunkard. (5) The Soliloquist (One), (6) The Soliloquist (Two). (7) The Stranger & Other Poems. You can access the above books by visiting his site on the internet, by clicking https://syomuti.com He has taught students at different Secondary Schools in his home county for many years down the line. He is an approved Bible Skills Institute (BSI) trainer, a theological program of Every Home for Christ International, (Headquarters-The Jericho Center, Colorado Springs, COUSA). He teaches church adults theological courses. On top of that, he teaches adults (physically), English Language. He is a born again Christian, a pastor and the Founder/Bishop of Siloam Worship Center International Ministries. You can access the church details online, by just writing and clicking the above underlined name, on the internet. He is an itinerant preacher, and a teacher of the Word of God. He has several certificates and diplomas in theology, from national and international Bible Schools.
He has a certificate in Spiritual Life Development from Northwestern Christian University, in USA. Above all, he has honorary doctorate degrees of Doctor of Humanity (DH) and Doctor of Theology (ThD) from Prixton Church & University, in USA. He also has a Bachelor of Arts (BA) in Ministry Science, and honorary doctorate degrees of; Doctor of Achievement in Ministry Science, Master of Arts (MA) in Ministry Science, Doctor of Divinity (DD) in Ministry Science and Doctor of Philosophy (PhD) in Ministry
Science, from Abide University.
MY DREAMS
I want to try my gun in logic and self expression and see whether I
can shoot anything. I want to blow my trumpet loud enough and see whether anybody can hear me. I want to play my musical instrument with rare expertise and see whether anybody can dance to my music. I want to use my pen and paper and scribble a short prose to see whether anybody is interested in reading it. When I was young, I cherished great dreams and ambitions concerning my future life. I was very optimistic and aggressive. I envisioned great
achievements and a real pompous lifestyle, which would be quite
immune from all external adversities.
AS I LIVED
As I lived in my own world of fantasy and illusion, many mental pictures of what I desired to
become flashed over my mind, persistently. I was a hero of my own making. My school teachers would come to our class wearing a pair of shoes for a continuous week, without changing their pairs of shoes. I felt disturbed and I wondered why they behaved that way. Little did I know that they had weighty family responsibilities which required finances but due to meager salaries which they earned, they could not make some of their ends meet. As time passed by, I found myself in the same and exact picture like the one I saw my teachers experiencing, of the inability to afford everything I desired.
TRICKY AND UNPREDICTABLE
Life is so unfair, tricky and unpredictable to some individuals. I say, life has no formula. As I have stated earlier on elsewhere, life is a big school where all of us who are living in this world are students who learn different lessons in our own different classes. Nobody can claim to conquer life or be a hero in its scene. Both the hero and the villain are usually in the same brackets. No one can outsmart life. I say, friend, you cannot hoodwink life. You, being a student in the school of this present life, continue learning and studying in the school.
Attend your classes regularly and ensure that you do all your exams without missing any paper. Our teacher who cannot be dodged in this case is life. The exams of life’s lessons are usually difficult and tricky. No one can claim to have scored a hundred percent marks in the exams which he or she has done in different classes of the school of life.
YOUR REMINISCENCE
There you are. You thought you were so smart upstairs. You walked
with a lot of self confidence and a high degree of finality. You threatened people who crossed your lines and perceived them as your enemies. You lived in your own world of imagination and you did not regard other people in any way. You were an object of real power and greatness. But now, you have fallen. You have come down here where we are. You have been forced by inevitable circumstances to desert your lofty place and now you have joined the ranks of the common man. You made many people cry and whimper. You took the advantage of your friends’ misfortunes and inabilities and so you exploited them to the maximum without any traces of mercy.
THESE DAYS
These days, things have changed. You have found it very difficult to accept and come to terms with the imminent and unpalatable change which has occurred in your life. You commanded real power and respect. Your fame echoed across the neighboring regions. You were a real enigma. But now you are no more. You have lost all the wealth which you depended upon. As a matter of fact, you are no longer in the public’s limelight and cadre of adoration. You are now sailing in the same canoe with many of us. All the allies you depended upon to praise and worship you as a god
are nowhere to be seen.
DESERTED
They have deserted you because you don’t have anything which
they can consume as they praise you. You can now feel the pain
and shame which one experiences when he becomes broke. Anyway, friend, take life easy and come out of your nostalgia. You are not the first one to become insolvent and neither will you be the last one.
When you were a tycoon, you thought that those of us who could
not afford to purchase certain basic commodities were lazy and
useless. You kept your distance from us because you had a negative perception towards many people of our class. You have now been brought low to our level.
BITTER LESSONS
You have learnt bitter lessons in life that you do not become wealthy because you work harder than your
contemporaries. You do not win a race because you are swift. You
do not win in a battle because you are strong. That man you can see just a few meters from where you are standing was a prominent figure some years down the line. He was appointed as the managing director by one of the leading companies in our country to oversee its affairs but he became shrewd in the way he dealt with the affairs of the firm. He had the power to hire and fire. He was a man of real authority. Many of his colleagues feared him. He was a man of great academic achievements. He earned a good salary and enjoyed many other benefits pertaining to the company. But somehow and somewhere in the course of time, he became very proud and started mismanaging the company's property. He also started bullying and threatening his colleagues and juniors. He sacked many employees who did not pledge their royalty to him. He sacked women who declined to have sexual affairs with him. He caused great suffering to many people. He became a real drunkard. That was one of the ways he could make proper or improper use of his money.
SWOLLEN WALLET
His wallet was always swollen with a lot of money. He also had a lot of money in different bank accounts. Sometimes he deserted his wife for almost a fortnight and nobody knew his whereabouts. His close confidants said that anytime he disappeared from his home and workplace, he was busy committing adultery with the wives of other men who were economically and financially
disadvantaged. He became an agent of divorce in many families. And just because he was a man who had a lot of wealth, people who were offended by him especially men, could not point an accusing finger to him openly because they were afraid of being victimized. Dear Sir, you who were once a man of real wealth and fame, you are now lamenting. You have come to utter ruin and considerable shame. You have become a stranger to yourself. You have become a stranger to the members of your family and many of your most intimate friends.
You have nothing to cling on, now. You have nobody to depend on. You have no friend who can console you.
YOU HAVE LOST
You have lost everything and you are now living a miserable life. You are wallowing in thechambers of desperation and self denial. Alas! How do the mighty fall? How do they lose their grip? They come down tumbling and groping. All their clamor and glamour fade irresistibly in thin air. They are left in disbelief with their mouths wide open and with their hands folded on their bosoms. They still want to pursue the shadows and illusions of their former lost glory, but all in vain. They strive to seek sympathy and command attention but nobody notices them. Shame and rejection has become their portion.
So you decided to be lavish and reckless, until you finally found yourself in the true chambers of irresistible want.
FROM GRACE TO GRASS
Consequently, you have fallen from grace to grass and now there you are, lamenting and sobbing as you ponder over your former lifestyle which you cannot retrieve. Look here my friends and foes, I know you regard me as a soliloquist or a lunatic, but the fact remains that this fellow had a golden opportunity which he could have utilized to develop himself in life. You can also recall that there were other needy people during his time, which needed his help desperately, but he ignored their plight. You are now trying to sympathize with him because he is in the category of the beggars of our time. Go ahead and sympathize with him, but you won’t change his destiny. There are things that you cannot change in life, no matter how hard you may try. Just as it is impossible to collect spilt water or milk, so it is for anyone to think that this man can go back to his former glory which he has been yearning for. The best thing you can do is to tell him to brace himself boldly, to face life in its real perspective and forget his former victories. Tell him that he can only treat his former life as reminiscence but not as a basis of practical reference which can be used to usher him back to his former life. I can only advise you to regard this man’s past life as a bygone.
You can contact me through;
Email:syomuti@gmail.com or jambsy@yahoo.com
Mobile: +254724649652 or +254718776259
Facebook:https://www.facebook.com/jamesmbotela.syomuti.7 Twitter:https://twitter.com/jambsy@yahoo.com
Website:https://syomuti.com
Blog:https://syomuti.blogspot.com
